How the hardest months become the biggest blessings in my life, guiding me towards my Divine Timing?
This is my baby’s story, but because he is too small to talk, I have to write for him, for now. So, I will start with 13th February 2018, which actually turned my life into a life based only on gratitude.
Maybe between you guys, who are reading this, are still some who believe in unlucky numbers like 13!
This is how the 13th of February starts for us. I was pregnant, 19 weeks and 2 days, and we were waiting for the scan to reveal our baby’s gender. We were very excited to find out because we already have 2 beautiful boys.
Unfortunately for us, the baby didn’t have the right position to see his gender, but it did have a good position to find out that something wasn’t normal with his right kidney. We were told maybe it is a cyst and get a next day appointment with the consultant. I am a therapist since 2006, and I knew a cyst is not necessarily something dangerous, but still, as a mother, I was worried.
So the next day, after the scan was done, the consultant gave us even worse news. It wasn’t a cyst; it was more.
The consultant talked about some conditions that I never believed would happen to a baby in the womb and definitely not to my baby.
"There is a large bladder that is in all probability due to a lower urinary tract obstruction. The amniotic fluid volume is normal. The whole of the fetal urethra was visualized as such I believe the obstruction is a result of an anterior syringocoele, which is causing an intermittent obstruction. There is mild left-sided hydronephrosis and a right-sided perinephric urinoma…Rescan in 2 days."
The medical intervention that he explained to us was a risk for my baby, and I didn’t accept it. I was very worried, but I still tried telling him that anything can change until the baby is born, but I respond to a big impossible. He told us that this condition is very rare, and from when he practices medicine, he never saw a recovery. He also explained that the next step of this would be less amniotic fluid which will cause suffocation to the baby, and if this doesn’t happen, then, at birth, he will have kidney failure.
So sad, he didn’t even allow him to be born and was already talking about him dying.
We went home, and my heart was broken. I felt his first kick at 12 weeks. He was so active every day. I couldn’t believe this is happening. I refused to believe it.
Because I work with supplements straight away, I start taking the ones I knew will help with kidney conditions, and I start praying and doing meditation, hoping for a better result in 2 days.
On the 16th of February, we see the consultant again, and the news was even worse than before. Due to the obstruction, his bladder enlarged even more, and both kidneys had urinomas. He told us even if we choose the medical intervention. He can’t do it anymore because it is very difficult. At this point, I ask to be referred to someone more specialized in this matter.
It happened on Friday. I remember like it was yesterday. I was left with 0% chances for my baby, and I refused to believe what the doctor said, but he even draws for me on a paper to make me understand there is no chance. I knew they would tell me to stop the pregnancy at some point, but I couldn’t even see an ending like this for my baby.
We found out that he is a boy during the scan, so in the evening, we decided on his name. Emad, meaning trust and faith. It was the perfect name, I decided to trust him and my intuition and have faith in God.
At that time, I was a Theta Healer practitioner, a technique based on a focus prayer/meditation to train mind, body, and soul to clear limiting beliefs and live life with positive thoughts, developing virtues in all that we do. I always had happy clients, and I witnessed miraculous healings, so I start being my own client. Few times, I also worked together with other healers, and we send many instant healings to the baby and also change many beliefs/paradigms; Because we all know the baby has the same energy and feelings as the mother, we work on baby and me together, but still, I was feeling like something is missing.
At one of the courses I had, when I was practicing, we had to manifest how something impossible become possible. The word ”impossible” ring in my head, and I knew this was the piece missing from the healing.
So I knew the baby's condition start because of some obstruction, and I decided to witness the healing of that, to change the impossible into possible.
As I was witnessing the healing, I felt so relax and calm. It was so amazing. It was like a light going to the womb. Wash the baby and, taking the obstruction, send it up into the infinite sky, in the light. I felt that healing in every cell of my body. I knew it happened. Now, I was really waiting for the next appointment with the professor to confirm that something changed for the better.
On 20 of February, we finally see professor Kypros Nicolaides at Harris Birthright Research center for Fetal Medicine.
During the scan, there were 5 doctors with us, explaining what is happening. So at that point, they see a normal size bladder and the ureters were not visible anymore, meaning they are not swollen and still urinomas on both kidneys.
For me, that was the best news. I confirmed that the obstruction really disappeared (it was healed), and urine was going out normally.
But it didn’t mean the same for professor Nicolaides. He told us that the ureters broke because of too much pressure, and that’s how the bladder shows empty.
I completely deny his theory and told him mine, but again I heard IMPOSSIBLE! He also said the best advice he can give us is to stop the pregnancy. His words were like swords in my heart. I was feeling like living in a world where a baby's life doesn’t matter. I knew he has a very good reputation but still, I stand up for my baby and for what I believe. I told him I want a next scan to show him I’m right, and my feelings as a mother are right as well. He gave us an appointment after 1 week, and he was sure it would get worse. So sure that he said if the baby is stable until next time, he will come to take his words back. He also told us that it is better to decide asap because later is more difficult. (An abortion)
"In the scan today, there is bilateral urinoma, and this is a very poor prognostic sign. Parents wish to observe the evolution in the hope that this will resolve." – Profesor Kypros Nicolaides.
Because I see he doesn’t give us any hope, I asked him to measure the urinomas to show him the improvement at the next appointment.
For me, as I said, this appointment just confirmed the healing start. For the next week, every morning and evening, I was meditating, sending light and unconditional love to my baby’s kidneys, I was manifesting and praying for the impossible to become possible, and no matter what was going on in my life, I was always positive. It was very hard in this situation, but I knew what I’m doing for my baby because he wants to be born. I knew he chose life.
On the 27th of February, we go again to repeat the scan. I am so happy and grateful to tell you that I was right. Because they measure the urinomas, I could see they are getting smaller. It wasn’t a huge difference but for me was enough. Plus, I was waiting for the professor to show because he said it is impossible to remain stable a week ago. After all, he never saw that in his life. I didn’t tell you, but he almost laughed in my face when I said my baby would get better.
Even after this scan, they didn’t give me any hope.
I maintain my mind and heart positive, no matter what they said. Every day I was doing theta healing sessions. The first thing when I wake up was being grateful for everything and being grateful for my healthy baby. Every night I was thanking for the day I had and getting 1 day closer to meet Emad. While doing this every day, I build a very strong connection with my baby. I knew him before he was born. I knew how he will look like and how he will be like. I felt him so strong, so wise; he might be a baby, but I felt his soul so big and pure!
It lasts 7 weeks until both kidneys show in the scans completely healed. If you wish to see the scan pictures during this time, doctors were still negative about what will happen at birth.
"However, the natural history of obstruction is usually progressive deterioration, and particularly with urinomas, the chances of abnormal renal function at birth is as high as 70%."
At some point, the professor discharged me from his hospital, as he saw the baby is getting better, but he never comes to see us. Why? He was ashamed of his advice, or my baby’s life was too insignificant to matter? Since then, I wondered how many parents are getting too scared because of some diagnosis and choose to terminate the pregnancy? How many lives get wasted just because it is impossible for doctors to have faith and believe in miracles as well?
27.04.2018 scan — Finally, both kidneys healed miraculously!
"The previously noted urinoma on the right side has resolved, and the renal volume is now within normal limits. The same now applies to the urinoma on the left side."
After all this, on 4th July I became a mother for the 3rd time. At 2:31 am it was born the strongest and cutest baby and obviously the healthiest one!
You will think maybe wow, but don’t hurry yet. This didn’t end here.
Obviously, 3 hospitals got involved in this after his miraculous birth, trying to research why it heals, but I did not allow that. I’m sorry, but in our case, doctors weren’t right even 1%, so I kept my position defending my baby, which wasn’t easy, as even social care was involved, but this is a story for another time.
"Some people will make you go through hell, But with faith, you will feel like walking in Heavens!" — Mihaela Gordan
In all this story, I don’t want you to think that I’m blaming doctors. No, many good doctors are trying their best. I did meet one of them, the only one who stayed and listen to me and didn’t try to force me to do any unnecessary tests. I say science is not everything, and miracles do happen when you have faith. Doctors are humans also and should believe in miracles, or at least allow the parents to believe, do not scare them, give them hope. And when miracles happen, just let it be. Experiments won’t give you the answer because science will never understand the power of faith.
For many, maybe this will be a nightmare, but for me, it was, and it is a blessing. Every second of my life since his birth is gratitude. Even if he is little, he has his purpose in this life and already taught me how to have faith 100%. He taught me that it is possible to have a positive mind and a peaceful heart in this stressful world. You need to decide to live this way.
He has shown me how unconditional love together with faith can move mountains. But the most important is he shows to all of us that the impossible exists only because we limit our minds and refuse to see further, maybe because of fear or to less faith. For us, Emad made the impossible very possible. He is a very strong, calm, and happy baby, the happiest one I ever see. Since his birth, I am gifted with millions of smiles. His energy is so pure and calm. Through his eyes, I can see only unconditional love, and anywhere I am, if I am next to him, I am in the most peaceful place on Earth. When I look at him, I realized how blessed I am. I learned to appreciate every second of life and try to live it in unconditional love!
For many mothers, the first months or even years are full of crying, stress, depression, tiredness because of so many nights being awake. That was me also, with my other 2 kids. But this time, his birth gave me strength, made me happier than ever before, and complete.
He came to show me my real purpose in life, to be a spiritual healer, so I can help as many parents as possible, who go through similar situations, so I hope this message can reach them!
I also realized that life is so perfect, and everything happens for a reason. I was introduced to the Theta Healing technique after I suffered 2 miscarriages. It never goes through my mind that this technique will help save my baby's life later on. But again, faith was, and it is everything. Theta healing is nothing else than a focused prayer in a relaxed state of mind, theta brain waves.
Because I was asked so many times how I did this, how this is possible, how to change illness into health, I create a powerful Sacred Health Meditation for everyone to use, free of charge. This is what I use to pray, visualize, and believe in every morning and night! This is how, together with my baby, we changed the impossible into possible!
Everyone interested about can contact me and i will send it to you!
I am sending you all, unconditional love and don’t forget before giving up, decide to have 100% faith, and things will turn around!