I understand that the depression is seasonal, but I’m not sure what exactly is causing it. Have you tried running or dancing or upbeat music or mantra repetition or just smiling. You should definitely change something. If I do what I did yesterday, today, tomorrow will be the same as today.

By thinking you are messed you are further increasing your depression. You can generate thoughts in the other direction for balance. Like Thank you for the food one my plate. Or thank you for this life today. It depends on how intense your depression is.

One thing that very important to our wellbeing is taking care of how we interact with the elements of nature around us. Like the earth, water, fire, air and ether. I’ve been doing is walking barefoot on the grass (earth) outside while being in the wind (air). Sitting with a fire and bowing to it. Storing my water in copper and showering daily. And bowing to the sky when I can. You don’t have to do everything.