I think you are looking for is acceptance of who you are. Having no goals is okay. Not thinking about the future is okay. Not wanting to develop is also okay. Being confused means your mind is healthy. In my opinion, everyone who thinks they know something (in the context of life) is usually wrong, with the exception of spiritual masters like Sadhguru or Eckhart Tolle. Life is complete in this moment. Life is a game where you choose how it plays. I can go deeper into these topics and help you feel more at ease. If what I’m saying resonates with you then a session with me will definitely help you.