There will times during Awakening when it feels as though we "can't think clearly" and this will bring up tremendous fear. To feel confused, while the attachment to thinking mind is strong, is uncomfortable. "Am I losing my mind", "am I losing the ability to reason?" Questions like these will come to Awareness.
We can relax into these moments rather than fighting or resisting them. There is a purification and integrative process during Awakening which is happening. There will be a temporary suspension of thinking while the power of Being or spaciousness expands, strengthens and stabilizes.
We could think of it as "construction", where traffic is re-routed to another road while a bridge is being repaired. The re-routing feels foreign as we struggle to read the detour signs, yet if we follow them, we will find our way.
The former pathway now under construction was to turn to thinking mind which used judgment and negativity to build a story around happening events.
This is undergoing change.
The "new" pathway, which is our original inherent pathway, is the openness to the flow of Wisdom as discernment.
The construction process is the weakening of attachment to thinking mind, the openning to the flow of Wisdom coming forth from our Being-ness.
The thinking mind is obsessed with "objects" of mind, its thoughts, its emotions, its stories about "things". Like seeing only clouds in the sky and never taking in the vast spaciousness of the sky, itself.
We can rest in the open "sky", the spaciousness of Being, unattached to objects such as thoughts and emotions.
This may seem scary at first, this Freedom, the Bigness of it. As we dip into it, we come to know It as That Which We Are, welcoming with no-thing to fear.
We can rest assured that all is well.
We can allow the process to take place without worry that we will "lose" the ability "to think". We can dive deeply into the Spaciousness of formless Being without fear of it, we can embrace the unknowing.
The time will return when thinking happens smoothly again and we will notice that thinking has become more efficient. Pure thought, devoid of egoic distortion is free and very skillful.
The mind, as a tool, serves beautifully the inherent Wisdom of the Truth of Who We Are.
We will notice that we did not need negative judgment, that Wisdom is capable of discernment without any negativity. We begin to rely upon the power of unconditional love rather than judgment. Love flows freely as ego dissolves.
We begin to realize through direct experience the marvel of the integrated mind, where mind is used as a tool informed by Wisdom and Truth rather than mind being "attached to or identified with" in support if a "little me" egoic concept needing to attack and defend.
We can allow the unwinding of the identification with thinking mind by braving these moments. This is cooperating with Awakening. The old is passing away and the new is arising.
2 Corinthians 5:17, “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”
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