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looking at me makes me uncomfortable because I cannot look at myself and when I do it leaves me wondering, what are you looking at?

This seems contradictory to both me and the statement, because I looked at myself before leaving home, and there are many mirrored objects throughout my day that confirm the viewing and feelings I had of myself before I left home.

This is both the beginning and end of the article…

Because I left myself back at home and I will, or cannot carry it with me, cause once I am out of my zone, shell, or myself, it is the world that carries, construct and drives me.

No matter how confident I believe I am, my confidence is contingent on my surroundings, so I am not confident within myself, but rather I have learned to be confident within the environment I occupy, and thus I construct confidence around that.

Having two personas, two "me"s, or just being "two-faced" is a manifestation of what I deem my confidence.

So why, after your presence, am I concerned about what you see and feel about me?

The answer is in the image above, we have questions that need answering, for if they are not resolved, we are lost, thus losing control of ourselves, our surroundings, and even the people we meet.

The few who control our world today are very much aware of this, and as a result, they have managed to maintain their position because we have sustained the disposition between ourselves and others.

These powers, establishments, institutions, etc, are now certified masters of the material realm, and aesthetics, form and fear are their business and practice.

That is their agenda: to draw us further away from mind and body so that there will be no self left to accept the body, and so, the body becomes the property and context of our manufactured environment.

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We are what we eat, do, see and experience and we are not aware of the true self, so when you look at me I am concerned I am not in alignment or conforming to the agenda.

What you are looking at is you, and what I am looking at is me, and this seeing brings no more questions, searching for answers, concerns, or control, just freedom to live without context or reasoning and so creating neuro-pathways in the brain filled with endless possibilities and feelings we never thought possible.

My writing is about helping to see ourselves before we can fix, mend, resolve or clean ourselves of ourselves, so we can house the divine through meditation and bring real change within ourselves and the world around us.

I send Love to you all and thank you for giving this time to yourself.