THE CORE HUMAN PAIN: SEPARATION FROM GOD

The pain in here is when the Masculine withdraws his attention, which is felt in the system as rejection or abandonment.

When I say the Masculine, what I mean is Consciousness, Presence, Attention, Love. They’re all synonymous.

You can see this in the relationship with your Father figure if you look close enough and with enough sincerity.

As a a child, a little girl or a little boy, something makes you upset, angry, frustrated, jealous maybe...and so you fully express it. A temper tantrum maybe. Your father doesn't know how to deal with you in that moment because of many reasons but mostly because nobody held space for him in his emotions as a child, so he simply doesn’t know how to contain you, or that he should. Maybe he feels intimidated or powerless in front of your free expression as a child. Whatever it may be. Not ignoring the seed of manipulation in this either.

So this scene goes on and on throughout your childhood. You feel strong emotion, express it out and your father withdraws his attention or disapproves of you in that moment, in those moments. He fails to meet you emotionally and so you are left abandoned or you feel rejected in your full expression.

And so you learn exactly this, to abandon yourself when certain emotion arises or to reject yourself, whatever the case may be. Because Attention withdraws, these things grow in the Shadow, but this is another conversation.

Now you are an adult with a very well groomed ego and anything threatening that ego will be perceived as dangerous. Even Truth, even your full authentic expression or anyone shining a light on the overlay you created on top of reality. Even if, as the case may be, this overlay is a complete delusion. There are people out there being completely miserable and unfulfilled in a relationship while telling themselves the story that they are in a healthy, loving connection.
Your identity is so well crafted that anything threatening it, will be filtered out from your perception. This is how people spend years on end in talk therapy, and getting nowhere. That’s actually the point, to give you the impression that you are healing, developing, evolving while in reality this is not the case, because that would mean Death for the wounded identity you hold so dearly. So you just grow your ego with more and more information, reading another book, taking another course, thinking that you heal yourself and grow and develop, while none if these is actually happening (overlay).

Hypnotherapy is actually a tool that would help you break through that wounded identity and actually grow as a being, but I see many people running the other way. It’s actually their ego, sensing its own death and therefore convincing them that past life regression is unsafe or whatever argument works for them. The ego always knows how to convince you. It’s your ego after all and it knows you very well. Better than you do.

By the way, when I say wounded identity I mean just that, the ego.

And so, in reality the only path ahead to real healing, real self development and cultivation of your true being is by meeting this wound in yourself and stop rejecting yourself, stop abandoning yourself.

Then Presence grows. Then love grows. Then awareness grows. Then you learn to hold yourself in love, and you get to know how sweet and tender you are, you get to see who you really are. And so, Beauty unravels, Magic is revealed and Life becomes a Play.

But first you gotta meet that Grief, that pain of separation which is actually well covered by your very own ego. This is what the ego is for actually, to help you survive. You can thank it for taking you that far and take the rains of your life into your own hands. There will be a constant dance with Death when it comes to the ego. Growth and Death, Growth and Death and so on. So don’t worry about letting your ego die, you will get a bigger one to Dance with. It’s Endless because you are Endless.

Much love to all,

Sosan