What is so special about the number 39?
For starters, it's my age at the time of writing this post. Secondly, it's one of my favorite songs by the rock band, QUEEN.
On a deeper note... From an "angel number" standpoint, it means much more and reflects my life's journey to a T.
As many of you know, I've been going through a spiritual awakening as of late. An AMAZING awakening, I may add. Getting more in tune with my purpose in this life of mine and focusing on my path as well as being that "mentor" to others who come to me as a listening ear, a shoulder to cry on or for solicited advice.
39 has brought sadness, in losing my mom -- Yet, it has also brought happiness. Internal happiness that I longed for. Sure, I was happy at times. But those were times when I looked for OTHERS to make me feel happy. I wasn't genuine with myself. I needed someone else to make me feel ANYTHING.
It took me having to experience personal loss to reach that place where I could be genuinely happy.
Now, wait. I know how that may sound but the point might be being missed.
No. I was not happy BECAUSE my mom passed. I was happy because she no longer suffered. In my selfishness, I wanted her to live forever. But also in my selfishness, I was not happy. I was not happy about my mom's situation and her sticking around just to make us happy.
When she moved on, I cried. I screamed. I yelled and banged on the walls. I let all of it out of me. All that anger and guilt... I let it go.
Eventually, my heart and mind settled and I began praying... subconsciously. I was asking for things in my mind that I didn't realize I truly needed.
My intuition kicked into high gear. That third eye was wide open and suddenly, I felt more at peace.
AWAKENED.
After dealing with deep deep deep depression since the age of 9, it took 30 YEARS to find enlightenment.
39 has been both a melancholy and magnificent age thus far. I feel like I'm being prepared for greater things.
I'm going to be 40 next year. I've mentioned before that 8 is a lucky number for me and that 2024 added together equals 8.
I am looking forward to what's in store for 2024 and beyond.